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Thinking vs. Doing


We have a little saying around our house that we use with our daughter Eleanor, “Obey right away without delay”. She has heard this so often, especially when she was in her three year old phase, that she could finish our sentence for us. We have been working very hard at teaching her the importance of obedience. We would explain to her why it was important to obey mommy and daddy, and we have had to teach her on occasion what results in disobedience.

Eleanor obviously still disobeys from time to time, but for the most part she is now a very obedient child. And the best part is that she’s respectfully obedient. Hopefully that will last to her teenage years 😉

So my four year old has obedience down pretty good; hummmmm……….and then there’s me………

I like to call myself determined, my husband however would call me stubborn. And at times I guess I can be somewhat stubborn in my obedience to God. Oh sure I give plenty of excuses, but my main ones are: what if that’s me and not God speaking; I will when ___________; let me just get the house cleaned first!

The first excuse is the main one I fall to quite often. I do not want to do anything God has not called me to do, but I have allowed myself to take that uncertainty of hearing from God and have allowed it to cancel out some of the things I know are from God. It took me three years to obey God in starting this very blog. Oh sure I tried to start it several times, but I faltered on my commitment.

My women’s group at church has been doing a study on Jonah. It’s called: Jonah, Navigating a Life Interrupted by Priscilla Shirer. This is an awesome study if you’re looking for something to do with a group. This study has thrown the idea of disobedience in my face for the last four weeks. If you know anything about the story of Jonah then you know that he disobeyed God in going to Nineveh and therefore was swallowed up by a great fish and resided in the belly of that fish for three days.

Jonah 1:2 says, “Arise, go to Nineveh the great city and cry against it, for their wickedness has come up before me.”

Well Jonah did arise and go, but in the completely opposite direction from where God was sending him. Priscilla Shirer points out in her study that, “it’s easy for us to impersonate obedience.”

People are great at deceiving others and themselves. It’s easy to go to church, to talk about what God is showing you and asking you to do as if you’re trying to move in that direction. Others might buy it. And in some areas of disobedience it’s not that you’re hiding something, but maybe just not doing something God has put on your heart time and again. For example, God could be asking you to tell someone about Jesus, and you come up with excuse after excuse to disobey. We don’t label it as disobedience, oh no we put a much better feeling excuse on it like: I’m still growing in the Lord; God’s still working on me; I’m still praying over it.

Maybe your area of disobedience isn’t involved in discipling, maybe it’s giving up alcohol or quitting smoking, or breaking up with a guy, or putting up blocks on your internet. Whatever it is obedience can be VERY hard.

We can’t do these things on our own, that’s why God has put His Spirit in us to empower us!

We need to connect our hearts with God’s. We need to connect our minds with His truth. We need to give all the excuses and fears over to the one who can take them from us and give us back strength, peace, patience, gentleness, goodness, kindness, faithfulness and self-control.

What is it that you have been disobeying God on? What has He been speaking to your heart about that you need to stand up and do? God is a god of second, third, twenty-fifth chances. Jonah knows that well. In Jonah 3:1 it says, “Now the word of the Lord came to Jonah the second time”.

God is there waiting on you. Go to Him again in obedience.

God Bless! Have a great week!


The Armor of God (Fashionista Style)



“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put o the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people” (Eph. 6:10-18).

Knowing how to wear and use the Armor of God can, in an illustrative use only, be related to knowing how to be stylish! The Armor of God is all connected, it’s not separate pieces but rather it’s connected through God’s word. Similarly, the things we wear seem separate, but they should be connected with such a flow that it creates a certain style, and each piece adds to it. So let’s break down this huge passage and look at each part of the Armor of God, and why not look at it through the eyes of Fall Fashion!

Belt of Truth:


“Wearing the belt of truth means knowing the Truth (Jesus), reading the truth (the scriptures), and living the truth (a life of integrity). All three are essential” (Lawless pg. 86). The truth of who God is and what His words say and how we should live our lives needs to be the focus of who we are. Much like how an awesome belt can become the center-piece of an outfit, Christ needs to be the center-piece of who we are.

Breastplate of Righteousness


An essential Fall piece is an awesome cardigan. I love cardigans! They are so versatile and perfect for the changing temperatures. When thinking about the Breastplate of Righteousness I was led to thinking about a wonderful cardigan. We can be righteous because God has given us His Righteousness! It is through Christ’s death on the cross that we may be cloaked in the Righteousness of God. But being made Righteous by God doesn’t mean we have no responsibility; God has called us to live righteously, to show the presence of God in our lives by making Godly choices. Much like this gorgeous cardigan pictured above, we are covered in the Righteousness of God, but we have to wear it around, allowing it to set the standards for in which we live.

The Gospel of Peace


Great shoes can do so much for an outfit! They can totally kill or complete the look. In the Armor of God, the Gospel of Peace is connected in scripture to putting on sandals. Basically it’s saying we need to be ready with shoes on and everything, to share God’s word whenever an opportunity presents itself. I know when I am wearing an awesome pair of shoes I feel empowered, ready to take on whatever. We need that same tenacity in how we feel about sharing God’s word. First we need to make sure we are ready by knowing how. Do you know any scripture that you could use to lead another person to Christ? If not, look in Romans 3:23, 5:8, 10:9-10, 10:13, 10:17. And secondly, we need to be seeking out opportunities to tell others about Christ. I know it can be intimidating at first, but the Holy Spirit is there to empower us and give us the boldness to share God’s word; lean on God’s strength!

The Shield of Faith


Okay so I connected the Shield of Faith to those awesome Fall purses that are calling my name! “Paul used the illustration of a shield to help us understand faith. In Paul’s day, Roman soldiers covered their shields with leather and soaked them in water to defend against the Enemy’s flaming arrows. They were to press forward in war, not allowing the Enemy’s attack to hinder their forward progress. Using that image, Paul called believers to take up the shield of faith, meaning we’re to trust the truths and promises of God’s word when the Enemy aims his arrows at us. Faith means we press on regardless of the opposition’s ferocity” (Lawless, pg. 89). I hold a lot of important stuff inside of my enormous purse, and the purse itself protects those things. Our Faith protect us when we are going through a storm in life. It’s what pushes us on. I have definitely used my purse to push myself through some annoying crowds in the past. You know what I’m talking about! That big ole’ purse and a halfway nice sounding “excuse me” has gotten us through some of the tightest of squeezes, and so has my Faith. It’s gotten me through sickness, fear, frustration and doubt.

The Helmet of Salvation


The Helmet of Salvation is not talking about our “final salvation in Heaven but about having victory every day through Christ. It’s about conquering sin in the present tense” (Lawless pg. 90). The Armor of God term is Helmet not Trophy. If it were the trophy of salvation, then after we acquired it we would put it on display and walk away. That’s not how it works nor is it the intention of wearing a helmet of salvation. Like an awesome trendy hat, we have to choose to put it on. It is an act of intentionality. We are all sinners and fall short so we need to each day focus our attention on putting on our salvation in an effort to resist temptations. Hats of all sorts have become quite the trend; however, the average person will not wear a hat with every outfit…that would just be weird….but as a Christian it is essential to always wear our Helmet of Salvation.

Sword of the Spirit


The Sword of the Spirit is the Word of God. I cannot replace it or even use something else to represent it. It is so important to know and have with us our Sword. It is both a defensive and of offensive weapon. By knowing God’s word we can call Satan out on his lies. At the same time, we can offer Truth and hope to a hurting world. You know a great place to carry this sword around in, is an awesome trendy purse! Take the word with you. Make it a part of your daily routine and wardrobe.

So there you have it!  A Fashionista’s version of the Armor of God. I hope you all have a blessed week, and remember to check yourselves each day to make sure you are stylin’ that Armor of God!

Lawless, Chuck: Mentor:How Along-The -Way Discipleship Will Change Your Life

Fake Boobs and a Metal Leg


Fake boobs and a metal leg, really? What’s that all about? Well, that’s what I’m all about. How come, you ask? Cancer.

I’ve never really sat down and typed anything up directly dealing with my cancer experiences, but with it being Childhood Cancer Awareness month, I thought I’d give it a go. I’ve actually wanted to write this blog for quite a while, but I keep stopping myself from doing it. I had no idea how emotionally attached I am to the fact that I’ve had cancer twice, and to be honest, it’s hard to really write about without having to revisit some hard times. I’ve been in a mood this whole past week leading up to today; ask my husband he’ll vouch. It’s like the vaulted part of my mind that holds in fear, anger, worry and sadness, all due to this disease and how it has changed my life, was pried open and I was thrown inside to sit and dwell and deal. But it’s good. One lie cancer survivors like to often believe is that we can totally move on from cancer without any lasting effect. Even if there’s no physical change from dealing with this disease, there is still an emotional and mental altering. This altering is not all bad, but it’s definitely there to stay.

So briefly I want to share my two experiences of having had cancer with you. Now there is no way to capture all of the horrible and wonderful moments this disease has brought me in a simple blog, so know as you read know that this is just the tip of the iceberg….

The first time I ever remember hearing the word cancer was when I was told I had it. I was eleven; I just started the sixth grade. My life was good. I was very active and had lots of friends. I could run so fast, and I prided myself on how strong I was. I don’t think I had any awareness to death or disease. Why would I? But all that changed. Within two weeks I was diagnosed with Osteogentic Sarcoma, a form of bone cancer, and started an almost year-long cycle of chemotherapy. My cancer had attached itself to my left femur bone just a few inches above my knee. I still look back at pictures from right before the diagnoses to try and see if I could tell it was there. Well I can’t.

After about four months of horrible chemo, where I was in and out of the hospital weekly, I had my surgery. They removed most of my femur bone, my knee, and part of my thigh muscle. They replaced the bone and knee joint with a metal rod and artificial knee. I had 52 staples, was on crutches for 18 months and still adorn a scar that’s over a foot-long on my leg. After my surgery, I finished up six more months of chemo, I almost died, God healed me miraculously from needing a blood transfusion, I gave my life to Christ, met some of the most amazing people who forever changed my world, became a part of the Camp Sunshine family, a camp for kid’s with cancer, and was sent on my merry way.

Through the next seven years I went to at least five funerals of friends who didn’t make it….including one I considered to be a best friend.

But then just as easily as I packed up for college, I packed away all these years of memories and left that life. I went on to college, met my hubby, got married, dealt with Aaron being gone to Iraq twice, adding up to about three years total, within the first five years of our marriage. We got pregnant, praise God because cancer kids don’t ever really know if that will be able to happen until it does or doesn’t, we started our life in ministry, transitioned to another church after three years, got pregnant again and then happily ever after. The End!

I wish! Reality: At 32 weeks pregnant I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer.

It’s not yet been a year since this most recent diagnosis, but man it sure feels like ten! We found a lump in my milk duct; it was very small yet cancerous. After lots of doctor visits, which I abhor and possibly turn into an 11 year old all over again as soon as we walk in to the doctors’ office, we decided to have a double mastectomy with reconstructive surgery to rid me of this go at cancer. Now that decision wasn’t nearly as easy to make as it was to just type out. I had the option of them going in and only removing the 1cm size lump and doing six weeks of radiation, or I could take it all out.

Fake boobs. That’s something I never thought I’d have. God blessed me up top so I never dealt with the desire to add, I used to think how nice it would be to take some away, well watch what you wish for! I knew from the get go that a double mastectomy was what I needed to choose. I have a history of cancer, and am 88% more likely to get cancer again than the average person, so were boobs really worth it?

There was recently a lot of praise for Angelina Jolie on her decision to get a double mastectomy by choice to prevent the disease that took her mother. Honestly, my opinion changed about her some when I read that, but in reality, women everywhere have to make that choice every day.

I am so thankful for a loving husband that supports me in all I do. I know this choice would not only affect me, but would also affect my husband as well, so let me brag on him for just a bit. Aaron is so selfless; his love for me is so pure and true. Not once have I felt less of a woman since having this surgery, and he constantly makes me feel desired and attractive. Thank you Aaron; I love you!


Since deciding to have my breasts taken completely out, I didn’t have to have chemo or radiation. I did second guess my decision, but then my doctor called and they said that after doing a biopsy on all of my breast tissue they found an additional cancer. It was a sarcoma and had remained completely undetected!

You know, cancer is a lot of things, and there’s a lot that it’s not.

Cancer is serious Cancer isn’t always a death sentence

Cancer is hard Cancer isn’t a form a weakness

Cancer is scary Cancer isn’t in control

Cancer is cancer Cancer isn’t me

Cancer doesn’t define me. Fake boobs don’t define me. The fact that I walk with a slight limp and can’t run doesn’t define me.

Cancer is a part of who I am and who I’ve become. It’s attached to my salvation story. It’s the reason for hundreds of friendships and dozens of life-changing opportunities. Cancer provided me with a different perspective; gratefulness for life, but it doesn’t define me.

I know that as some of you read this you can’t sit there and connect to the positives of cancer; I know so many of you have lost a loved-one due to cancer. I pray that my family doesn’t have to feel what you’re feeling. I don’t want my husband to be wifeless, I don’t want my children to be motherless, I don’t want my parents to be daughterless and my sister to be sisterless. I want to always survive and live until I’m old and gray. But my reality is that that might not happen. Cancer could be my taker, and it could happen next year, or in twenty years. Because of this, I choose to live my life to the fullest. Much like the Tim McGraw song, “Live like You are Dying”, I know I am not promised tomorrow so I choose today to live! I live for love, and laughter, for memories, for fun. But most importantly, I live for Christ. He is my beginning and my end. Cancer is not my definer, Christ is.

Do I freak out every now and then or when I have a new pain in my body, thinking it might be cancer? Yes! Do I let it control me? No! For I do not live in “a spirit of fearfulness; but of power and love and discipline” (2 Tim. 1:7).

Fake boobs, a metal leg…a cancer survivor who is saved by the blood of Christ……that’s me!